Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Ghosts

"Even though my eyes are shut tightly
May I see you brightly" -Sleeping at Last

Sleep

It's something so simple. Close your eyes, and then hours later you open them back up. Most of the time you can't even tell how much time has passed. All it is, is just what you do, inbetween days to make the next day easier.

Sleep

It hides an incredible power. The ability to rejuvenate your body, and your mind. The power to make you forget, but more importantly, the power to make you dream.

Dreams

This is where things get a little complicated. Dreams are more than just your mind working while you sleep. Dreams hold everything you've ever done. They are the bridge between the forgotten, and the cherished. Every night can be something different. One night you could dream about fighting robots with your dad, and the very next night you could be running faster than you could imagine through a crowd of people in a parade. Anything is possible. But nothing quite has the impact, of dreaming about your past.

Memories

This is the real power of dreaming. No matter why, or how, dreams will bring back anything you've known in the shut of an eye. Things you have forgotten. Things you have shut away because they hurt to much. People, places, sounds, and smells. Nothing is off limits. And it's too bad if you don't want to remember, because you don't have a choice.

whether it be something 20 years old, or something last week that has slipped your mind, eventually there's a good chance it will happen to you again when you sleep. The return of lost loved ones. Playing with a beloved pet one last time in the snow. Feeling your body shoot with electricity during your first kiss. Anything can be relived, no matter how afraid you are.

Sorrow

Just like any good moments in your life can be relived, so can the bad ones. The first time you brought home an F from school. The way it felt to feel a loved ones life slip away and nothing in your power could stop it. Knowing the person you've given your life and all of your heart to is gone. Living through these moments all over again can be dreadful. Once you awaken, the feelings don't go away. They can pin you down for weeks, or you can get lucky and lose them to memory after half a day. Whichever happens though......tears will fall..your breath will falter....and your heart will break all over again. And there's nothing you can do about it.

This ended up a lot longer than I expected. I truly feel that loneliness is the worst emotion anyone can feel. I hope I don't remember my dreams tonight

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