The Pottery Wheel

So Christmas came and went without much of a fuss. It was not unlike a normal day, except that I was given an electric shaver. New Years, in similar fashion, came and went as well. It was spent with Josh again like my New Years always are now. It was very frustrating at times, but no matter, it was still much better than spending the night at home playing video games. Not that I don't enjoy that immensely, but I like having a change of pace on the last night of the year.

2004 was a hell of a year in my life. Dealing with the hell I call my brother took up most of it. I drove 2000 miles to visit a friend in Oregon. I started going to concerts again. Had one friendship go to shit, and then later repaired it. One hangs in Limbo, and yet another may have been ruined on the final night of the year. My dad changed jobs, and is now home all week instead of just on weekends. I wonder what this year will hold for me.

I've never been one to make resolutions because I always thought they were kind of silly. That and I usually didn't ever make it past the second week in January. Masturbate less in 2001 indeed.

Anyway this year I'm not making a resolution. But I am going to try to be a better person. What I mean is, better for myself. This year I'm going to try to speak up more regarding what I really feel on issues. I have a bad habit of just agreeing with people, or telling them what I think they want to hear. I usually won't push an issue simply to avoid any friction in a conversation. Who knows if that will happen though, changing an instinct can be difficult.

I'm going to take a nap, lists to follow.